College means stress, a ton of work, and not being able to lay around all day and go shopping at South Park at night.
However, college also means friends, a football game and semi-formal this Saturday, and actually doing things with my life.
Such a dilema.
I think break just needed to be a couple days longer.
I don’t want to grow up, but at the same time, I want to press fast forward on my life.
I want to stay young, party, do pointless things, stay up til 4 in the morning with my best friend for no reason, not think about consequences.
And yet, a part of me wants to have an established career, have a child to spoil, start my own traditions for the holidays, and have a spouse with whom to go shopping.
What are you thinking, brain?
Maybe it’s that those I surround myself with are older - graduating college, engaged, moving forward in life, etc.
Maybe I just think this is what I should want.
Maybe it’s just the holiday season.
Whatever it is, it needs to stop so I can just sit and enjoy my early 20s.